Fire, Acid, and Poison

Fire Acid Poison

Last September, my Good Lady Wife added two foundling kittens to our pride of house lions. They were lately born when she discovered them, but now they are old enough to be integrated with the rest (two of which are elderly) on a more or less permanent basis.

There’s an old adage about the curiosity of cats, and the potential outcome of same. So we spend a good deal of time telling them to get down, get off that, don’t bite that, etc. In the hope that eventually they’ll either learn it’s not safe, or simply tire of being yelled at about it.

The little princess though, has decided that I am her people, and that she must at all times accompany me in whatever I do. This includes, according to her anyway, my time in the studio. I have explained to her why this is a bad idea, using exactly the words of the title, but she seems unconvinced as to my sincerity, and remains intent on exploring the obvious cave of wonders I am keeping hidden behind that door.


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There is indeed fire. In addition to two actual high-temperature torches, there are several soldering irons, at least a pair of wood burners, and at any given moment there will be incense and/or candles burning.

As to acid I keep several kinds. Some for metal work, some for printmaking, and some for the odd mad scientist experiment and/or old school film photography.

And under the heading of poison, I have quite a selection. There are alcohols, acetones, ammonias, caustics, coal tars, cements, latexes, polymers, binders, adhesives, pigments, dyes, and inks, not counting things that come premade that most people would recognize as paints. I even have the alchemical standbys of several small vials of quicksilver and a large golden hunk of pure brimstone. ( and never you mind what for).

There’s various powders that are bad for the lungs and/or toxic if not deadly when improperly handled. A large number of the containers are marked with “Highly Flammable” and “Use With Adequate Ventilation” and a few that require protective gear.

And on top of that are the other “odd” things which may include crystals and oils and “organic materials” that should only be rarely touched and never tasted.

So in short everything that would delight and entice a curious kitten into a grand but all too brief adventure. Hence the door to the studio stays closed.

I have started to think more and more about the quantities of very bad things that I have amassed in the name of art. And aside from a few things that are just “vibe” in the space, the majority of this collection is for the making of art of various sorts. In my career as an artist I have thankfully seen a shift into less toxic, less carcinogenic, and more environmentally and even vegan friendly materials. But in some cases there’s just no substitute for the bottle of danger ketchup.

I am now old enough to be sensible regarding handling these materials. When I was in my twenties in art school, I would routinely eat, drink, and smoke in front of the easel. As with many artists, the paintbrush was conveniently held in my mouth when both hands were needed. There is no doubt I ingested paint that included some dangerous heavy metals, and toxic pigments. To the extent that I absorbed enough of this to do permanent harm is anyone’s guess. I don’t have the symptoms of heavy metal poisoning that may have been responsible for some of Van Gogh’s insanity (or at least exacerbated it). But then it’s hard to say whether my present weirdness is some lasting legacy of eating cadmium and snorting turpentine in the early 1980s. Among other things.

Part of this new awareness has been a deep dive into the formulation of various artistic materials, as well as into their history. I am looking to find means of producing works of longevity, while at the same time minimizing exposure to material that may decrease my own.

At basis, most art materials consist of two or three components. The first is pigment, the thing that actually makes the color. Next is the binder, what causes the pigment to stick to the paper, canvas, panel, wall, or boulder. Finally, for some there is a solvent or diluent, that makes it possible to mix the binder and pigment into a form that can be easily applied, but which will later on be permanent.

Depending on your pigment, there may be some toxicity issues. Natural “earths”, organic plant pigments, and synthetic industrial colorants can contain chemicals that are inimical to the meat suit. The cadmium and cobalt colors are becoming harder to get and then only at a premium. This reflects as much the rarity of the compound as it does the environmental hazards in handling and preparing them.

Binders, on the other hand, seem less of a problem, unless you are allergic to latex. Synthetic polymers are being substituted for natural gums and resins, and beeswax is being eschewed to make vegan friendly materials. The downside, though, is that synthetics are inevitably petroleum distillates or by-products of the petrochemical industries. As such they carry along the same downsides as any fossil fuel: environmental pollution and resource depletion.

The solvents are frequently the most dangerous part of the mix. The oldest of these is probably turpentine, made by distillation of pine resins. In combination with certain other plant and nut oils, this chemical makes a painting medium that allows dry pigments and powdered resin binders to be spread by a brush, and to achieve a hard cure. “Mineral spirits” another euphemism for petroleum distillates, is a more modern second, and then special preparations like alcohol and acetone round out the gamut. Because they are designed to break down or at least liquify the organic matter of the binder, and then to cure by oxidation or evaporation, the volatile organic compounds given off by these solvents are a big problem in the artist’s studio as well as the general environment.


Smokey Montage
What is it you have there? Can I see it? I’d really like to see that? Can I?

Forty years ago, the detail of this wasn’t part of a general art education. There were vent hoods over the acid vats, and crossed bones over the poisonous cocktails, and in some spaces no smoking signs, but getting deeply into both the chemistry and operation of what made a paint was not part of the curriculum unless you were taking a special course in grad school (or were a chemistry major looking to score a job with Dow or Dupont).

In fairness, most of the students in my painting classes had little interest in that level of detail, and I probably would not have either, except that I was always trying to paint on things that weren’t meant to be painted on. This encouraged a broader understanding of the various compounds available, but no necessarily the awareness of what they were made from, or how they worked. Over the years a large number of these compounds have left the market, because they were toxic. An example of this is the so-called “magic marker”


Magic Markers
If you have ever used these you may be old enough for Medicare now, and you may need it for the damage they caused to your liver.

This term is frequently applied to any sort of felt tipped ink pen used for drawing or coloring. But the original trademark was a clunky combination of a metal ink cannister and screw on cap with the felt wick. These were developed about mid-century and aimed initially at illustrators and layout artists. The Madison Avenue advertising industry used them to produce brightly colored idea studies in rapid fashion.

The chief drawback of these was that the ink solvent was xylene or toluene. While not fully proven carcinogenic, these were linked to birth defects, liver and brain damage, and frequently caused dizziness, headaches, and disorientation. These were the same compounds used in the “airplane glue” the kids of the 70s were huffing to get high. So this should explain a bit about some of the advertising you saw created in the latter half of the twentieth century.

Most felt markers since the 1990s use an alcohol or water base, but the adult coloring craze and the demand for low-cost materials means possible importation from less regulated overseas manufacturers. I have sets of “professional” alcohol markers, and I have “discount” alcohol markers, and while I’m not sure that the cheaper ones are using something as toxic as toluene or xylene, they’re definitely more pungent and powerful in a closed room than the high end ones.

I wonder how many ancient shamans scarred, marred, and potentially ended themselves trying to find the exact combination bear fat, beeswax, bird egg and berry juice would render the perfect bison on that cave wall. I’m sure there had to be a number of disastrous failures before time honored formulae were able to be passed down to the apprentice and the acolyte. Such knowledge was magical and sacred, and conveyed powers which were beyond that of the rest of the tribe.

Throughout our history the connection of art and ritual is constantly reinforced. Art as ornament, until the most modern of times, still carried some sacredness or symbolic cachet. Likewise the making of such art was closely guarded, practiced by specialist like the scribes of Egypt and the masons of the Medieval Gothic. We can analyze and dissect and understand their methods and materials now in a more democratic sense, but in doing so, we have left the sacredness behind.

Most of the artists I went to school with simply wanted to know what combination of A and B was required to get their paint to flow smoothly and dry quickly (or slowly) or be thinner or thicker. The “why” of it was on no interest to them. I see a great deal of this echoed in much of the magical community, looking for a “practical” approach, like a cook book, and speaking of “theory” with the same derisive nostril as a third grader might speak of “math”.

The one without the other certainly is functional. A list of things to get, step by step instructions, and what to do if you catch the curtain on fire, and that’s all. But what if that doesn’t work. What if you prefer pecans instead of walnuts in the brownie? Is it a simple matter just to substitute one for the other?

There are those who would argue that, but I’m not sold on the concept as a universal truth.

There are oil paints. There are water-based paints. There are now some paints that can be mixed with oil or water. But not all of the water-based paints can be used with the oil based paints and vice versa. Luckily, these are labeled relatively clearly down at the art store.

But this is not the same with everything, and not the same with spell work.

For instance, there is a thing called an oil pastel. Presumably, this is because it was devised to create the same kind of immediacy and painterly approach that chalk pastels were used for, but without the crumbliness and dust. All well and good.

Chalk pastels are made by taking color pigment, fine kaolin clay, and enough binder to get them to stick together and to the paper. As a consequence they are quiet fragile and dusty and require applying a “fixative” of some sort to the finished work to glue it down. Prior to our modern aerosol cans this was done by atomizing a dilution of water and gum arabic or rabbit skin glue onto the work.

So around the turn of the century pigments mixed with wax instead of clay came about, and these were softened with “mineral spirits”. Labeled “oil” pastels because they contained a petroleum based solvent.

Now the natural inclination is to think that oil pastels and oil paints are fully compatible, and that one could use the stubby little crayons as a perfect means of drawing your composition under your painting.

It turns out that this is a really bad idea, because unlike the linseed or walnut oils commonly used for oil paint, the petroleum oil in the pastel never actually “dries”. So the oil pastel oil will dissolve the oil paint oil, or at very least make it tend to slide off the drawing.


Mixed Media
Despite similar names, shapes and brands, these things are all very different chemically and do not always play well together. Substitution, co-mingling, and the mixing of media requires a deeper understanding of how they interact, how to coax their cooperation, and how to insure that the final work not only meets expectation but also creates a lasting result. This is analogous to spell crafting from scratch. You have to know about all the pieces or the results can range from failure to outright disaster. At very least you may have to start over, and at worse, something may spontaneously combust (it happens).

This is further confused by the fact that you can use turpentine and oil painting mediums to “paint” with oil pastels and achieve a limited chemical curing that makes them behave more like oil paint and be less subject to surface damage.

Then there’s the oil stick, which is really oil paint in a stick form, not to be confused with oil pastels.

Making these work together harmoniously is a job in itself, and only achievable if one has a really deep understanding of not just the how but the why.

Making them work, and making them archival, so that an art collector or museum can expect the value of the piece will be protected in the long term, is an even more complicated task, with additional layers of chemicals and processes arcane and obtuse.

I view the process of “deep magic” with a similar eye. And I use that term to distinguish from the archaic and elitist notions of “high” and “low” magic. Practical magic, is by definition intended for general purposes to get things done. I use it. I have great respect for it. It works.

But it’s closer to a sketch than an oil painting. And there’s nothing wrong with that. There’s no need to take the time and effort and complicated process of making an oil painting when a sketch will do.

There are a lot of how-to books that take the approach of a cookbook. This is the same for art as it is for spell craft. There are a few that take it to the next level, where there’s a bit more said about the bits and pieces and putting them together. But in the end you probably won’t find a single art book that gives you the how and the why at that level of detail, and you aren’t likely to find a spell book that will either.

At least I haven’t. I’ve had to go put the pieces together from a lot of different places, and I’ve had to grow the knowledge to know when what I find is potentially useful, and when it’s purely selling something.

I hope you have found this rambling potentially useful. It is last minute due to the demands recurring ill weather on the Gulf Coast is imposing from my day job, and thus there are fewer images here than usual.

Perhaps next week we can get back to a better balance. Thank you for reading to the end.

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About The Art

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One of the chief reasons for my Yuletide sabbatical was that I had not had the time in recent months to work on any of the art projects that I had planned/sketched/imagined during the several months between my last major road trip in August and the advent of my Halloween/Birthday season.

As a creature of the Winter Dark, this period is often when I circle back into myself and focus on the creative endeavors that summer obligations make difficult. Alas, as the years pass this luxury of a winter respite seems harder to return to, but in this case, the one thing I could set aside was my own commitment to a weekly article here.

I am aware my readership, while loyal, is not large. And that’s fine, because I feel like I am reaching those who are open to hearing what I am saying in the way I am saying it. I had contemplated other means of doing this, most notably a book and a podcast (not necessarily both). But the logistics of doing these to the level and extent that I envisioned them, required a great deal more of a commitment of time, at least, and energy to “make a go of it”.


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The slow progress on this painting is deliberate. I have not worked in oil in many years, and, to be honest, I was never terribly good with them when I did. The years have given me patience to work with the more complicated techniques, as well as wait for layers to properly cure before barreling forward to the next part. I suppose I would have been a good fresco painter back in my 20s, because I worked fast, and sometimes the spontaneity served me, but often it left a work that was not as good as it could have been. Many of the works I have envisioned for 2024 and beyond are to redress the less successful versions of my young.

So I started to put together this website with the intention of using it as a storefront, a place to sell such works as I had imagined. To compliment and enhance the branding of said wares, I started trying to put together a page or two on my personal perspective of magic and how it relates to my art. But as technical issues delayed the storefront, and I was working out options (and budget) to move the site to a new service provider that would support the storefront technology reliably, I started working with this WordPress side-site to help better articulate that message of magic and art.

I have mentioned that somewhere along the way the tail started wagging the dog. In mid December, I decided to send the dog to obedience school, and get back to the creative art part of the thing, because, a. ) the pre-paid contract for the website was already a year in with no storefront to fund renewal; and b.) there wasn’t anything for the storefront to sell.

The last couple of months have not been as productive in that respect as I would have preferred, but I do not consider the time wasted, nor do I feel that the directions I am heading in now are un-useful.

Sometimes we need to not just go back to the well, but back to the basics.

A consequence of taking a break is that my brain was somewhat more rested. Thus, said brain returned to it’s proper job of producing new ideas, resulting in a number of ideas for artwork. This was the intended purpose of taking the break. However, the new ideas brought with them a desire to use materials and methods that I had not used for some time, or never, or never together, and well, I was not at all sure I would be able to execute on the ideas offered by the now properly operating brain.

If you are a creative person, you may have had that experience of attempting to make something you can clearly see in your mind, but can’t seem to get right. It’s frustrating to the nth degree, and also, the anxiety of having such a failure can paralyze one to trying in the first place.

In fairness, after almost 40 years as a working artist, I am reasonably skilled at making my hands behave. Absent the occasional arthritic twinge, expressing visually what I see in my head is not so difficult as it used to be.

Except in the case of doing so with materials and methods that I had not used in ages, or ever, or ever together. That’s reasonable. One should not expect to execute flawlessly in a new media, or an old one that was never as friendly. And yet, the desire is there to do so. Especially if the end result is expected to be a commercial success.

Thus one is required to practice. To test, rehearse, fail, rethink, retry, and otherwise make those inevitable mistakes without the final piece being subject to these errors.

Thing is, the art of practice is not as easy as you think. Especially for a creative sort, who is expecting high quality outcomes.


Gouache Sketch Wip
Progress on a small gouache sketch on smooth bristol board. I had acquired a set of this type of paint in a discount sale, and used it with a couple of water color and aquarelle works. But in those executions, with the exception of using the white tube as a correction, I more or less used it transparently, as I would a watercolor.

That is a valid method. Essentially gouache and watercolor are the same thing- pigment with a gum arabic binder. Gouache has additional “whiting” or “body” to make them go on opaque. Unlike acrylic paint, which has largely replaced gouache in professional illustration work, the older medium will soften, melt, run, and blend even after the initial layer dries. This can be a disadvantage, or it can be useful to lighten or blend out a heavier color, as in the face above. Finessing these qualities is difficult, particularly if one doesn’t frequently use the medium.

It’s fortunate that as I am in my late 50s I have acquired the patience I did not have in my 20s. In my 20s, I worked without regard to error, in a mad blind rush of ego and drive that merely put imperfect or less successful works under the bed or in the closet to be forgotten. I had no time for specific tried methodologies of testing and practicing.

So now, I have come round full circle to making tests, to establish how the media will work for my intended final piece, indeed, whether or not it will work. In some cases, I have taken out a particular type of tool purely to practice, knowing it might not be suitable for the thing I am trying to do.

For example, I had an idea for a painting. I sketched it with oil pastel, though I knew the oil pastel wouldn’t actually give me a good result. It was not the best option to do the sketch, but I wanted to get a better feel for the oil pastels.

In another case, I sketched the idea with Conté crayon, because I had not used them in some years. The result was not a good one, but at least my hands now “remembered” how these performed. I made a very small (mind you I used to paint 4 feet canvases and larger murals) partial painting on paper using gouache, a kind of opaque watercolor. It was frustrating in ways, but also interesting to work with. I then did a second test related to the image with oil paint on paper, in order to test a metallic oil color, and a glazing medium, both of which are “new technology” since I last used oils. This also resulted in a mix of joy and disappointment.

Yet, it is the ultimate outcome of learning mastery, and understanding better, the materials which are new to me, or that I have forgotten.

Coincident with these practical exercises has been extensive research into both the direct use of these materials, but also into the proper curation of finished works using them.

For a good deal of my career, I have worked with modern acrylic paints, plain old graphite pencils, and a particular brand of colored pencils. I had academic experience with pastels, oil paint, Conté, charcoal, and water colors, as well as printmaking of various kinds and photography.

Many of these latter media are “fussy”. They can be complicated exercises in alchemy, such as oil painting, printmaking, and analog chemical photography, or simply just rather difficult to use, preserve, and store, such as pastel, water color, and charcoal drawings. In my 20s, short on patience and high on passion, it was all to easy to set these to the side, and assure myself that the “new media” of polymer emulsion acrylic paint was the way to go. “Plastic” paint would last for ages, even without a layer of polymer varnish (also easy to apply and clean up versus oil paint) and the pencil stuff was safe with enough spray on fixative.

Almost 40 years on, the implications of a petrochemical based art media is something I have more concerns about. While certainly there are pigments in use in all media that are derived from chemical sources, rare earths, and potentially toxic materials, older methods, like oil painting, watercolor, and pastels, are typically more sustainable and earth friendly.


New Media
I have spent my “mad money” the last few years on getting best-in-class art materials that I dreamed of having as a young starving student. These are expensive compared to what you run across in the “art” section of a craft store, or even at college book store. But in this case, the old adage “you get what you pay for” is often true. The quality and purity of the pigments mean that you end up using less to get the same vibrance of color compared to student or hobbyist grade materials. Another advantage to such sets is that most professional media is sold as single replacements, so if you run through all of your Naples Yellow, then you can just go get that.

Perhaps of most concern though as I get older is that the better quality materials may be less toxic, or at least are formulated with an awareness that the artist wants materials that are safe and renewable, and will pay a premium for it.

The most toxic solvent generally used with oil paint is turpentine, which is a by product of pine trees. Oddly enough, a number of professional paint companies have shifted to an “odorless mineral spirit” which is petroleum based. Neither is something you need to be breathing in close quarters. Both are volatile and flammable. Turpentine at least is renewable. Manufacturers are working with citrus based solvents that have the same effective properties, but are renewable, non-toxic, and no-flammable, so there is an awareness in the professional art industry that these things are an issue.

Likewise, manufacturers of pencils, crayons, and pastels are now producing vegan friendly solutions, These remove the beeswax that has been a feature of paint binders since ancient Egypt. In some media, eggs, animal glues, and other such by-products are being reconsidered in light of animal cruelty. Unfortunately, the alternative product is often a petrochemical, such as a paraben or an epoxy.

Hopefully research will yield solutions that meet both the ethical considerations and provide sustainable archival media that will allow today’s artists to be seen and appreciated in the museums of the 26th century, as we now can look at the works of the great Renaissance masters. Ironically, the late 19th and 20th century “modern” media are often the more problematic for curators. The materials themselves being made to a “commodity grade” standard, and applied, frequently, without the care and diligence that the artists of earlier eras learned through long apprenticeships.

While clearly I am writing about my recent studio work, my brain was not without the appreciation of the parallels to magical practice. During the last week I was also interviewed by Your Average Witch Podcast, and part of the discussion is always about methods of practice. It occurred to me that my approach to magic, like my approach to art, might benefit from a reacquaintance with those first principles. That is, while there are a number of things I do as habit, it couldn’t hurt to at least dig into the underlying principles behind those habits, and see if perhaps, in habitualizing them, I had shortcut some of the needed structure for the sake of convenience and time.

Like the painting, if I am doing something familiar, my hands know the way. The results are sufficient, but perhaps not spectacular. Such complacency is not beneficial. It leads to the trap of excusing poor performance, when paying closer attention, taking the time, and doing the research, might in fact have yielded a better result. And in fact the additional effort to get that first result invigorates and educates all subsequent attempts.

If I do a lot of the fiddly stuff for one or two paintings, then the next 10 or 20 paintings benefit from what I have learned, and also from the better habits of practice and research.

The same applies to spell craft and any other magical disciplines.

When we are young, we rush by what we need to do because we are in a hurry to get something done.

When we are older, we shortcut what we need to do because it doesn’t seem to make a difference.

And that’s because we didn’t do it when we were younger and didn’t have the basic sense to realize we were wrong.

Slow down. Take a breath. Re-read that chapter.

Not everything has to be a finished work. It’s okay to do something just to figure out how to do it. And to absolutely flop doing it until you figure it out.

I’ll be back in a week, I think. I have no idea what we’ll be getting into then.

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